You’re Not a Fraud

One of the most unique things about life is that even though every person is different, we are still connected somehow. As human beings, we are all prone to error and we are susceptible to feeling something. The roller coast of emotions that are felt may vary across the field, but overall, we must feel something. It is not possible to be emotionless as so many people like to say they are. Wow, think about that for a second. We live in a time where people brag about not feeling emotion. The truth is, we all feel something at some point. No man or woman under the sun is exempt from this. There could be a relationship that ended that left you confused or disappointed. You could have received some good news that left you joyful and bubbly. The point is that the ability to feel is the one level plane in life where we can feel unified.

Personally, I’ve felt every emotion there is to feel in this lifetime. I’ve felt the pain and sadness in losing a loved one. I’ve felt the jubilation and excitement that comes with new opportunities. The one thing that remains the same is change. With change comes growth, this is only if you allow. Something else that unifies us all is the inevitable collision with fraud.That may have gone over your head and that is fine because I’ll explain. We all deal with imposter syndrome. Think of a time where you doubted yourself heavily. You questioned your grit, determination, and skill. You questioned your accomplishments and if you really belonged in the lane that you are in. I’ve felt like that many times before and truthfully, I don’t think it ends. I think being in the era of social media this plays a big factor into these feelings.

My most recent bout came over a period of the last several months. In 2017, I started on a journey to become a doctor of physical therapy. This required me logging many observations hours in various clinics, long nights of studying for prerequisite classes, and studying for the GRE. Throughall of this, I still had my personal life to deal with and I worked full time.I knew that when I applied for school, I just had to get in. I mean, sure Iheard how competitive doctorate programs are, and that many people applied multiple times, but I thought that does not have to be me. The applications opened in July and between then and now I was reduced to a bystander. I witnessed many of my peers receive interviews and acceptance letters. I remained happy for them all because I knew my break through had to come. Days felt like weeks and weeks felt like months. Eventually depression started to settle in. I questioned myself and thought all my hard work would be in vain.“All I need is a chance,” I would repeatedly tell myself. It seemed that no matter how much I told myself this my turn wasn’t going to come. I had faith amid the darkness and part of me would not allow the negativity to consume me. Can you think back to a time where you felt emotions like this?

I told myself I may have to go back to the drawing board and prepare to apply next year. Then on one fateful morning, I received an email inviting me for an interview. This was the first school I heard from, and I was ecstatic. I thanked God and apologized for the doubts I had. I doubted myself numerous times and I had to fight to not count myself out. Now I’m in the driver’s seat and I am in control of whether I gain admission or not. Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise. Whatever you want in life you can have. The only thing that can stop you is you. With my interview quickly approaching, I gained a new breath. I am whoever I want myself to be. “I am the greatest I said that before I knew I was.” These words from Muhammad Ali should resonate with all of us. Speak your success into existence before it happens.Doubt will sink in sometimes and that is okay. Remain steadfast in who you truly are. You can become whoever you want to become. When this happens, remember you chose your fate, you’re not a fraud.

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